I don't think I'm gonna make it, hag friends. I've been crushing so hard on this girl I've been talking to online for years and I have such a hard time figuring out whether or not she's into me. I know she's in her 30s. I don't know if she's single or not, but she's never mentioned a boyfriend or a husband or anything. We've played games together and VC'd a few times (both with friends and with just the two of us), but whenever we do, she seems so distant and she doesn't say much back. But she still sends me memes and Hololive clips and stuff multiple times a week and I usually send stuff back when she does. Sometimes she even sends me mildly lewd artwork. And sometimes we even have conversations about our lives and things that we've been doing lately.
I've dropped all kinds of hints about being into older women and stuff like that, but she never seems to respond. There was even one time where we were talking about this museum that's basically in-between where we live and I thought for sure she was hinting that we should meet up there. I took a chance and asked if she was, and she hit me with "haha nah, I don't meet up with online folks".
I'm getting so many mixed signals from her. I don't know if she's into me, if she's messing with my head, or if I'm just seeing shit that isn't there. I even told her I was really bad at taking hints in hopes that she would just straight up tell me if she likes me or not, but she didn't. And I'm way too nervous to ask her myself because I don't wanna ruin this friendship.
I wouldn't even be upset if she rejected me, I just want a straight answer so I can get out of this nebulous "will she won't she" space.
