>>90635741This is getting a little personal but I'm emotionally fucked right now so idc, sorry about blogposting.
I started having really bad health issues in my mid/late 20s- I lost my fiance over it, my future as a doctor, my ability to go to the gym and my following job. I had no support from my fiance or my family... I was just alone.
The only thing that I had to look forward to was these girls and them being happy, insulated from all the cold bullshit of the world. And it gave me hope that hey, sometimes things can genuinely be 'wholesome' and problems can be worked on instead of thrown away.
Ame leaving I could rationalize, she had her own personal stuff going on and wanted to do things their own way.
Chloe and Fauna on the other hand felt before their time when they still had so much more to give.
Fauna's statement about how she still wanted to be an idol and stream just broke me. She was always one of the more professional and was pretty integrated with everybody so I thought everything was fine. What could've gone so wrong?
