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I thought my cough had decreased a little, but the next day, for some reason, it increased again, and I was like, "What is going on?" But then I thought, "It did decrease a bit today, didn’t it?" Yet I was coughing excessively again. Right now, it’s the same; my nose is stuffy, and I have phlegm stuck in my throat, causing me to cough.
20:15
The cough seems to happen because of phlegm; it gets caught between my throat and esophagus.
20:34
It feels like I’m drowning, making me gag and cough, but I’ve recovered enough that I only cough when there’s phlegm. Back then, though, it was so bad that I was coughing almost 24/7, except when I was asleep, though maybe I was coughing even then. It was like a never-ending cough.
20:58
Then, it settled down a bit, only to worsen again the next day. At that point, I thought, "This is hopeless. This must be serious." But I had to go to a recording session.
21:17
At the recording session, I had to record two songs. I honestly didn’t even know if I could do one. I was told, "Let’s give it a try," so I went ahead and recorded.
21:41
My coughing was so severe that I worried about infecting others. They said after 10 days of COVID, it’s okay to be around people, as the virus supposedly weakens by then. That day was my 11th day, so I hoped it would be okay.
22:11
I no longer had nausea, but singing brought out the cough. The more I sang, the more I coughed, and the coughing made me feel nauseous. I was afraid I’d vomit, so I asked for a break. After about five minutes, we resumed recording.
22:51
I barely managed to record the two songs, but honestly, the quality was awful. My voice was weak, I coughed too much, and the timing was off. I hated it. I didn’t want to release such poor-quality recordings, but I had no choice.
23:23
Afterward, my voice was hoarse. The next day, I was told there was another recording session, but I refused, saying, "I physically can’t do it."
24:07
Even though I explained my condition, they kept pushing. I proposed various solutions, but they insisted. I thought, "If I record in this state, the quality will be terrible, and I’ll harm my vocal cords."
25:07
They suggested we at least try the recording and see how it goes, but I argued it was pointless. Using my voice for the recording would leave me unable to do anything else afterward. I strongly insisted it wasn’t feasible.
26:07
Despite my protests, they continued pushing. I understood they had a schedule to keep, but I felt they weren’t considering my health or the quality of the work.
27:13
Eventually, I became mentally and physically exhausted, thinking, "Why don’t they treat this like a proper product? Why are they risking my health for this?" I cried when I got home because it was so overwhelming.
28:04
I realized I need to be more assertive. This time, I was stronger than usual, but I still consider others’ feelings too much. I didn’t want to hurt anyone, but in the end, it didn’t benefit anyone.
29:03
I told them the current situation wasn’t good for anyone. It would be better to record on another day when I was healthier to produce better results. They finally agreed to reschedule.
