>>935156I work out, I'm studying to be an engineer, I'm forcing myself to be around people who I'd otherwise avoid an attempt to become authentically sociable.
I know that if I do all of this life will get better, but sometimes I just can't muster the will to do it, progress is slow, or there's a setback. Sometimes I doubt myself and begin to feel stagnant.
And no matter how much I remind myself of the pointlessness of my doubts, they persist, so as I struggle on, unable to feel certain that what I'm doing is helpful rather than merely distracting.
And Hololive just makes me smile somehow, so I listen to Hololive songs as I study, workout or commute intermixed with podcasts on philosophy, economics, geopolitics e.c.t.
And that effect Hololive has on me is sort of a like a proxy for an uplifting friend I wish I had. (Not friendless, but I have too few very uplifting relationships with friends that I see consistently).
Not a simp though.
