>>94517030I am one such person.
It's like your brain works wrong, and not at all in a fun way. Like being exhausted but somehow even worse. Like being diminished, dimmed.
Something like a rush of adrenaline feels nice. It puts you on edge, and you wouldn't want to live like that, but you don't hate it in the moment. It's sharp and fresh and you feel stronger and faster for it. And when the rush ends, it's pleasant in its own way. Like a warm bed after a day out in the nature.
Alcohol? It just makes you worse in every way. It sucks when you're drunk, and sucks worse after you stop. Like a sunk cost fallacy manifested.
I know something must be wrong with me, that other people must experience something else, because I just can't imagine so much people wanting to get drunk on purpose if it's like this for them too. You would need to be addicted already, or have your life suck so hard that drinking yourself a third of the way to oblivion would be a preferable alternative.
