>Today, as unbelievable as it might sound, is my one-year anniversary in Hololive.
>A bit more than a year ago I was pretty much on the ground. I was watching Pekora every day and thanks to that, I was at least able to make it through the day. Hololive English auditions suddenly appeared and I realized it might be worth a try. Driven by the thought of being able to use my skills and my talents for this, and maybe getting another chance for success, I instantly filled out my audition.
>Back then, I wasn't very aware of what was going to come and what to expect. I didn't think I would have such a big and loving audience to support me. I also didn't think it would be so tough at the same time.
>We had many problems in the beginning. I lived in Japan back then for a completely different purpose. Because of lack of money, I didn't have the perfect set-up or even a decent one. A bad computer, no mixer or microphone, really bad Internet, thin walls and also thin skin.
>And honestly, I thought of myself as someone strong originally because of what I had been through until now. I am and always have been a very sensitive and emotional kind of person but I thought I was at least used to that dark side of publicity.
>Unfortunately, it was very overwhelming and many factors combined together ended up in a very rough couple of first months. You guys however watched me endure it and you stayed and believed in me. No matter how many times I had technical issues or cried and doubted myself, you guys stayed.
>I am far from a perfect phoenix but I really want to do my best. I want to keep on improving and I think in this one year, I have already improved a lot. It takes some time to get used to all of this you know but I think I found my groove, especially in the last few months.
>Moving from Japan to Austria in this one year was one big change and challenge besides joining Hololive. And then within Austria I moved another time a while ago. It’s been stressful but I want to thank my manager Jenma the most for helping me with the move from Japan to Austria and my friends in Austria for helping me settle in here again.
>Speaking of Jenma, being my manager must be frustrating sometimes because I’m very blunt, on my streams especially. But we have been getting along so well all this time and I can’t imagine what I would’ve done without such a great manager to support me through all of this. Especially at the time in Japan when I moved apartments but had no Internet, you were there to save my butt.
>You work so hard not only for me, but also for the other girls you manage and I want to say it clearly now because maybe you need to hear it too: you are amazing and doing an insanely great job. I could not ask for any other manager ever and I hope I will not have to change to a different one. I will do my best from now on not only for KFP, but also for you.
>There are many things I accomplished this year. We released three original songs, some cover songs too. We played many great games, had a lot of fun together, we dominated the fast food industry with the best chain restaurant on Earth: KFP!
