>>99541731I guess I know that, technically. And it's not like I am avoiding anyting because of societal expectations or any self imposed rules. It's just that the thought of interacting with someone I don't know, someone I don't know if I like or not, just makes me uncomfortable and nothing else, I have no desire to do that. I don't know if this is because of some deep seated insecurity or whatever, and I can't piece apart what I am actually feeling when thinking about it. I think I am just so anxious about the idea of interacting with new people that I have brain fucked myself into believing I don't want to, honestly
