>>1994798I'm just tired. Tired of this superficial connection I have. I want someone to be with.
Then I look back at myself. I have always been afraid on that connection. I have that fear of disappointment. Like what if I cannot give them what they expected of me. The idea that I left them down kills me inside. I don't think I couldn't live myself if that every happens. So I back down. I escape before that feeling evolves.
Then, the cycle continues.