>>7695860This desu.
I was an autist in high school, to add on to that, I would spend all day jerking off and watching tv/vidya because my home life was awful too. I couldn't wait to be done with it.
Fast forward to community college and I actually blossomed a bit. I met people, I got a gf. I met a lot of losers I didn't want to be like. The people who would never show up to class then bitch about never passing, I decided I didn't want to be like them and I would study hard. It made me miss being able to just go home and lock myself in my room because I had to spend most days at the library.
Fast forward to 4 year, I made real friends, people I am still friends with today. These people were winners and it was hard to keep up, my grades were still high but not as high as theirs, It made me miss being able to be by myself a little bit.
Fast forward to working, I had to get a haircut and a real job, I met the woman I loved and I would spend 12 hours at work and the other 12 with her. It made me miss the laid back undergrad life. Still, the money was hot and the life was stable.
Fast forward to my Ivy League masters program, I am mooching off my parents, my girl and I are spending less time together, the work was intense and much harder than actual working. It made me miss my real job.
Fast forward to my PhD program and I "have it all" according to my jealous family members but my relationship is in the toilet, I am constantly exhausted, I have little free time. The free time I have I spend on 4chan because lockdown made it impossible for me to meet new friends. I miss working so much and I guess that is where I will be until my PhD program ends and I will find something here that I will miss....
That is life, never quite being happy.
