>>6930257I feel you, OP. But from an outsider's perspective, I think the fact that you're obviously passionate about being social will be enough to eventually push you to getting out and enjoying life. Don't be too hard on yourself to socialize. I guarantee that at one point in the future, you'll say "Fuck it" and go to a party or event somewhere. That may not happen now, or even in the next year, but I'm confident that the urge to actually act will sneak up on you. I think you just need to keep in mind that life will go on even if you feel unfulfilled. What I'm saying is to not stress about it, because one day something will snap and you'll break out of your comfort zone. Just don't overthink it.
For me, I feel like I've been stuck living in the past, but there isn't really anything for me to take comfort in in the present. It's been over a year since my athletic life started going down the drain. I started running seriously a few years ago, and the year preceded my eventual downfall was the best year of my life. I started really committing to my runs during the summer, and by the spring, I was the most fit I had ever been. My mile time was just a few seconds shy of below 5 minutes. I made a bunch of friends in this time and became a much happier and fulfilled person.
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