>>7278917My sister is devastated. I always felt she should have trained him better. He wouldn't let go. I've thought of many different ways to bring him pain in my head. It's infuriating. But she has to sleep with him every night. Greet him every time she comes home. Let him out. Feed him. I don't leave my room unless I know he's sleeping. I just stare at him.. I guess this is going through the motions but I still refuse to forgive him. Not until he's the one being euthanized. I will stare into his eyes. And whisper 'for Martina'. I hate these thoughts. We were all tight. I hate you have to go through this too. Time heals but every second is hard to breathe. About to get started on the bottle. Melatonin and cbd gummies help. Maybe all at the same time I haven't tried yet.. Take care of yourself too anon.