>>7254549right there with you anon til about 2 months ago
pretty much the same situation except im 2 years younger
met someone I knew I had no chance with. Fucked it up obviously and got really mad about it, used that anger to start improving my life.
I don't known what kind of a person you are and what advice might or might not work for you but I'll try and help you anyway.
just fuck everything and everyone. if life ain't worth shit to you then why should you fucking care about anything or anyone but yourself. get mad get really fucking angry at the shitty world that fucked you, get mad at yourself for being such a fuckup. get mad and use that anger to forget every thought of doubt and worthlessness about yourself. get mad and stay mad, use the "hype" to start lifting, get a better job/education, get gf. find one thing that gets you consistently mad and use that to power you through the day. never forget it, get as bitter as you want about life but never forget this world that fucked you up to the point where you are now. nobody cares so why should you and if you're close to ending it it doesn't really fucking matter if you actually try or end it today. so why not at least try for once. give it a year, maybe two and if life still sucks you can still end it then. its gonna be hard and you're still going to have bad days my dude but when youre down in the dirt just remember the thing that gets you mad the most and use it to get back up and start punching
