>>8035935this
I came here to say exactly this.
It honestly sucks. It's worse when you're at the lows, so you try to improve and it actually happens like getting a stable career or getting closer to family. Hell, even with my cat who I adore so much, I still feel there's a part of me that'll always be empty. But I guess its better than going back on meds, because any emotion is better than none at all
