>>7383943I dated a girl 4 years ago. For those 4 and a half months we dated, I have never felt happier, never felt more in love. The summer of 2015 is a highlight of my life because of her.
I had to let her go because of things that were out of our control. That hole in my heart was filled temporarily with booze, girls, hobbies, etc.
In 2017 she ended up moving 2 hours away for school. Occasionally, we would hang out or hook up, and nothing was ever forced between us. But she has had a bf for months now, and she hasn't ever seemed happier.
She was back in town tonight, so I met up with her. We had dinner and talked, it was all harmless. Over this past year, my unconfessed feelings have been eating a hole in my chest. So tonight, I told her.
I told her that I didn't care if she didn't say she felt the same way, but I did care. I told her that our relationship was my best relationship, but she didn't say the same. I told her that I wouldn't wait around, but I wouldn't shut out the opportunity.
It didn't go how I wanted it to, but now she knows, and now I know how she feels. That our relationship wasn't anything more than our youth.
We'll see how I feel a week from now, but for now I'll just listen to The Cure and drown out the noise.
