>>7555832Anon, I don't know you, but I was in your same place a few years ago. Started drinking and taking pills, and a whole lot of other shit. I can't tell you it gets better, because it really hasn't, but it kinda starts to stabilize. Feeling insane doesn't feel so insane anymore. I think I finally hit rock bottom, and was low enough that I could take a step back and start to take control of my life, at least a little bit. Please, from one lonely soul to another, don't give up. I wish you well. Also, if you have anymore of those gun-art papes, I'd appreciate it. Dumping what I've got.