>>7257040I'm not trying not to have feelings, I have feelings, I'm angry and sad mostly. I reject her because I think she deserves someone who loves her, who pictures their lives together, someone who ACTUALLY wants to be with her, someone who will treat her as I once did, someone who would think of her when he wakes up in the morning and does his best to talk to her daily and see how she's doing, someone who could care for her more than himself. Not someone that doesn't love her and purposefully avoids talking to her because he's constantly fucking angry and sad. How would I help her if she had a stressful and emotional day and wanted to talk to someone IF I CAN'T EVEN FUCKING HELP MYSELF? Why would I bring her into this? When things get worse than this I know I did good rejecting her, because even with her there's nowhere for me to go but down. I know how what I said seems to you anon and I sincerely wish you could have an opportunity like this one I really do, I wish you the best.
