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I cannot wait for this year to be over. I'm really not looking forward to the post-christmas blues. I've had more suicidal thoughts this month than I have in the past decade or so. I'm not even doing that badly in life compared to many others and I appreciate this, but I just don't feel like I can cope with even the smallest of hiccups. Everything has to be going smoothly at all times, otherwise I start freaking out and, of course, this is life so things hardly ever go smoothly and when they do it doesn't last long. I'm not sure what happened - I was coping really well up until about 2 months ago, then suddenly I feel like my brain shuts down if something feels 'too difficult' to deal with. I can barely juggle more than 1 or 2 tasks, I'm forgetting important dates, I'm struggling to communicate and listen to people, including the people I love and actually enjoy spending time with. I'm hoping the small break I get for christmas will help reset me ready for the new year.
