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As of now, everything is doing good.
Studies are going very well, my parents are as healthy as ever (kind of) and my social life is surprisingly active.
There's one thing that concerns me though, and it's something I never stopped thinking about since I realized it. I'm sure it's not as uncommon as I may believe, but I have an issue with getting too close to others. It's not like I can't form bonds or anything, in fact it's the other way around: once in a while I find myself suddenly interested in someone and I try my absolute best to befriend and get close to her. So far it always happened with girls, and in those terms it's usually because I feel like I genuinely like them.
Here's the issue: about every single time I manage to get to the point where the other person either likes me or sees me as a real friend, I suddenly stop caring. There was this girl who I helped going through a fucked up relationship once: half a year of hell for me and her both I tell you, but we managed to and I got her out of it. When everything was solved and she started seeing me as her best friend (and more), it was the moment in which it hit me that I didn't care that much. I used one of the many things she did to me during those seven months against her (let it be clear: she was absolutely mental) and told her to fuck off.
There was this other girl, not quite as crazy as the one above but nevertheless not an easy one either. Same situation: all of sudden I'm interested in her and decide to start talking to her. In six months we decide to meet and that same day she drops her boyfriend. Oh boy, you're never going to guess what happened next...
I don't even know anymore, /wg/. I'm not trying to make a fuss of it, it's surely nothing too strange, but I can't help thinking about how it's going to affect me if this shit doesn't stop real fucking soon.
Also I never talked about this to anyone. I just don't feel like it's a big deal, but I still wanted to talk about it to someone
