>>7694249Anon,first of all, this is one of the best greentexts i've ever read, and I've been on this site for quite some time now (6+ years maybe). Second, I really root for you and that your life gets better. I won't give you any advice since it's your life and you know best how to make it better, Even if you don't know it yet, the anwsers are inside you, trust me. The only thing I can advise you on is to let go of this attachment to this girl. Nothing will ever come out of it, she will never date you nor you'll ever be friends again, and she's definitely not your only option of having a meaningful relationship. So go out there live you life and do your thing Anon, godspeed!