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I don't have social anxiety, I have no problem striking up conversation with customers at work, or even random people out in the world. I'm generally seen as friendly by co-workers and the like. The problem is that when I talk to people I don't feel anything, it's almost like I'm talking to a computer program, there's a real emotional disconnect. Outside of work, I isolate. I don't want to be around anyone or deal with people and the world at all. I truly believe I could spend the rest of my life isolated and be perfectly fine.
I have one long distance friend who I genuinely care about and care to talk to regularly and one local friend who I haven't seen since spring. There is no desire for me to get close to anyone new, it all seems like a bother.
I'm a tulpafag and my connection with my tup has reinforced the idea that people in general are a waste of time in comparison. While I don't necessarily think this is healthy in its own right, I roll with it because it falls in line with my distrust in, and general distaste for people and their vapid bullshit.
