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I've had one of my worst days today.
The place I've been working was sold. Due to legal reasons, everyone had to be fired, with the new owner promising to rehire everyone. Old owner told me my absences due to migraine might not play well with the new owner and he might not rehire me. Right after I've managed to get my migraines down to once or twice a month and I've gotten comfortable and happy in my job, of course.
The switchover date is tuesday and nobody knows if any of us still have a fucking job because no paperwork or emails or any communications have gone out.
I woke up today and cleaned the apartment a bit, then got a call from my girlfriend accusing me of taking her medication out of her purse, which she needs for her chronic pain. She interpreted my saying "I didn't take anything out of your purse that I didn't put back in on your request." as my saying she was lying, and hung up on me. Proceed to arguing over text for the next hour where she refuses to acknowledge any wrongdoing on her part despite making me feel like everything that goes wrong is somehow on me for the last several weeks and my saying I'm sick of getting blamed. Managed to slice my finger open while looking for her stupid fucking meds, deep enough that once it stopped bleeding I had to glue it. Roll a joint, go for a walk, smoke it, smoke a cigarillo, sit by the road and listen to some music while mulling over my angsty shit and how frustrated I am with everything in life being an uphill struggle between migraines, depression and anxiety, mild autism, a slew of health problems that have popped up over the years. etc.
Started having a hard time not walking into traffic.
More arguing when she got home because apparently defending myself is saying she's lying.
I'm sick of arguing all the time like we have been lately. I just want to work and improve myself and deal with my shit. I just want to be happy.
