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I'm scared. I'm scared I'm never gonna be happy again, I look at my life and I find myself asking: "Is this what I wanted? Does any of this make any sense anymore?"
I'm scared cause if I just stop for a second everything around me is screaming that it's falling apart, but I can't afford to fall apart. I've been wondering why I so seldom think about what's around, how every single family member is mentally dying and I can't help but wonder when it's gonna be my turn, How long I'm gonna be able to endure all of this. I can't help it, I can't help anyone but myself but it's getting harder and harder every single day.
I miss the good times. I miss when my mom was there, and I could talk to her, and now she's just a shadow of herself.
And I miss him, I miss when he used to look out for me but now I feel exclusively like a burden. I'm sorry.
