>>5920868I seem to be a lot like you, pal.
>Recently went to a very difficult funeral>after the funeral my girlfriend dumps me via text>anxiety and depression soon come back, I feel the loneliest I've ever beeb>relapsed, began smoking and drinking again after being clean for several months just for her>caught in an existential tug-of-war, afraid to die, but can't stand to live>cutting out on classes, not showing up to important events and appointments >I just want someone to hold me and tell me it's going to be okayEnough of that gay shit, on to my wallpaper
>I fight very hard to suppress my emotions, and do everything I can to make sure everyone around me is happy, and never intentionally leave anyone out. 