>>7626532I have plenty of hobbies, more than most people (judging by friends and family anyways).
But the problem is that hobbies go from being fun diversion to pathetic distraction. I can't enjoy my hobbies when i'm wondering how the fuck i'm going to make rent next month, or whether food or internet is more important to me. I can't focus on my hobbies when some love song comes on the radio and reminds me of how i'll never get to experience such a basic human emotion. Hobbies can't help me feel better about how trapped I feel, about how shitty my future looks and how i'm stuck in it for the next 40-50 years. At this point hobbies are cope, a pathetic attempt to distract myself from my (admittedly partially self imposed) shitfest that is my life. I can't concentrate on hobbies when a good portion of my day is spent thinking about blowing my brains out. I'm a naturally happy person too. My family and friends always comment that i'm cheerful and funny when they see me, and they can't fathom how I can be depressed.
Anyways, thanks for subscribing to my blog. It just frustrates me when people say hobbies are the answer like I spend all my time locked in a room staring at paint dry or something. Not having hobbies isn't my problem, not being able to live the life I want is my problem.
