>>7686162>>7686179Thanks, anons. I think where I struggle the most is finding something purposeful to keep me going. I'm trying, but it's a very long and arduous road to get where I'd like to be. It makes finding purpose in the mean time quite difficult.
As for loving, I've come to understand love as a motivation for the preservation and promotion of the wellbeing of the target of love. This has a reciprocal consequence that you want to be the best person you can be to meet the requirements to preserve and promote. I really haven't any understanding for how to direct that to myself. I'm just apathetic towards myself; passively acceptive. But I feel no good or pride towards myself.
