>>7690392i appreciate it son. blessings for ya.
i guess i've been struggling a lot with sin, too. frankly ive struggled with plenty of things but i push through. tack up and ride on. i aint seen some of my closest friends in months. i've been meaning to start going to the gym, become a fitizen and all that, but my buddy went to a gym once and got the rona, so i'll hold off for now. its not that im afraid of it. i just dont want to go out and get it and not know i've got it, and give it to family and coworkers and customers and the like. i dont care, but i dont want to give it to folks.
i like to think that God won't send you a good woman until you've proven you're a man. i also like to think bringing my body to strength is part of that. but i've got a long ways to go. im a skinny kid, real thin, cant keep weight well. but i'm committed, heck, if i'm gonna throw $30 at a gym each month you bet your ass i'll be using it.
>>7690427glad you're still with us brother. i been down the same damn path, in october. sat right there in my car with my rifle barrel to my head. just sat and waited. safety off, chamber loaded, everything. couldve done it. but i got out that car and knew God would carry me back to the flock. just took my time getting better. most of the time the music i listen to shapes my mood. i made a playlist just for recovering. it set me on a good path and i was chipper in a few weeks, easy. funny enough i was ought to shoot myself over a girl. one i mentioned in my last post. dont never do that, over a girl. you're worth much more.
love you all fellers. you just gotta tack up and ride on. it aint supposed to be easy, but you'll be better for it.
