>>8071327I've been cutting myself for over 10 years. There will be periods of time when I stop, but looking at my scars triggers this dark desire to keep on going.
If I'm being honest I don't really want to stop... It just feels so good. When you're shivering in pain after a fresh cut it almost feels like an orgasm. It's kind of hard to explain. Afterwards, I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders.
I think about death a lot. The idea of being dead brings me comfort. When I'm lying in bed I'll imagine myself as a corpse and the thought of that brings me peace
