>>5954905Sometimes that's not a bad thing. The phrase "Actions speak louder than words" I think is true to others as it is ourselves. The more you act, the more you believe that's who you are. However, you can see why that could be a bad thing in certain situations. Just remember though if you're ever feeling the burden of responsibility weighing heavy, the future only comes one day at a time... So take it easy and remember it's not so difficult taking it one day at a time.
>>5954952I liked the advice of another anon (however, I think you may lean towards ending the relationship) and as painful as it may be for both of you, it may be best that you take time for yourself. The most important thing we can do is learn to love ourselves and grow before we step into something we're not ready for. It's not healthy for you if you feel on guard all the time, regardless of how he's making you feel good. It causes stress reaction in the body which is unhealthy over time. Learn to love again and to feel comfortable trusting people before you step back into the dating world.
>>5955090As for your time in Iowa, it's just something you'll have to do to finish what you're doing. Sometimes we have to make that sacrifice in order to get things done. As for moving back home, I think there may be a middleground. I think one being that you can always drive (or fly) back home to visit your grandma from time to time if you move to Colorado. At some point in time your grandma likely had a choice to go somewhere and she got to choose where that was. Choosing where you want to live regardless of family isn't necessarily a selfish thing, it's just a personal choice and it shouldn't affect how your family feels about you. Maybe you should explain your concerns to your grandma and tell her that this decision is making you depressed and you don't want to leave her but at the same time the choice feels right.
