>>7497599picture attached is random, forgive me buuuut
honestly anon, it gets better.... eventually
>be me>madly in love with my gf of 4 years>both madly in love with weed, mushrooms, lsd, and drinking>wake up one day thinking i'm a piece of shit and treating the love of my life less than she deserves>leaves gf to get off drugs, find myself, and hoping to become a better anon>gf gets with best friend>lose gf and best friend, now i'm alone>see gf around college and other friend's houses just to ball up and puke from anxiety and sorrow>life is getting grim>losing all will>fast forward to now (5 years later this coming april)>in the army (not best choice but healthcare, retirement, BeNiFiTs, etc.)>better health and health care>college>gf is hooked on coke, meth, and some more>stuck with crippling depression and a void, unable to escape the burden and thought that her outcome is my faultaside from the depression and shit i'm in the best shape of my life, more educated than i ever thought i would be, and finally can think clear enough to realize there is hope at the end of the tunnel.
TL;DR: don't give up hope anon, find something to pour yourself into, and keep on keeping on Ricky Bobby. It'll take just as long, if not longer than you were with her to forget her and give over the pain.
