hey OP, i won't take much of your time, I'll just share with you how i definitely (at least I hope so) stopped wanting to kill myself:
>be me>feel like a piece of shit for failing studies, making the woman i love cry and such (the list goes on but that irrelevant)>get dumped by my girlfriend of many years because " I can't stand seing you so depressed, we are just both suffering">have that terrible feeling of wanting to disappear, wanting everything to stop>do some planning on how and when I should end my life>meet an old friend lost from sight a year ago>she have the saddest life i know (lost her mother, father insane and alcoholic, she ran from home, did a lot of drugs...)>with all this she had the truest smile I ever sawif she could come up with such a smile after living things so much worse than I ever lived i felt that I didn't have the right to be so sad with my life.
I don't know if all this can help you, but as a man who don't want to kill himself anymore all I can say is try to find somebody who came out of the shittiest life you can find and see him/her smile.
else, do this
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