>>7233410I'm not even sure I have any advice to give you because the answers are different for everyone, but I've been there too, on bad days I'd be driving home on the freeway the whole time thinking about how easy it would be to just drive off the road, no one would think it was on purpose or blame me and then at least it would be over.
Chronic depression will completely and totally convince you of things a healthy mind would never dream to consider, so I'm not gonna give you token shit about exercising or making yourself busy with work, the only thing you need to do is keep going, killing yourself will never ever be the right thing to do so as a human you just have to keep pushing without giving up hope.