>>7895564i should add that none of this really depresses me. it’s just kind of the state of being for me. the world is pretty banal; i’ve made my peace with it.
these are my days, they’ll stay that way so long as stability is necessary. i don’t think of myself as a unique person with a lot going for me. that mentality is likely why i’m doomed to a life of grinding mediocrity. in any case, it doesn’t bother me. things will be fine. the few friends i’ve made mean an awful lot to me. that’s the main thing that matters in my mind: connections, however fleeting.
falling back on the thought of stagnation. i may be caught between my adolescent cushion and where the world wants me to be at the moment. but the middle is enough for me right now. i don’t think i want advice. i’m fully expecting to be called a faggot or have no one take the time to read any of this; i’m sure it’s annoying to hear some kid spill his guts to no one in particular. i don’t know, why not post this?
if you’ve read this far, thanks. that’s nice of you.
have a good night, /wg/
