>>7979577It is such a mistake to believe you are doomed to be stuck like you are now. You surely did change the way you behave when were a child. For example I changed my philosophical views from teenage years to now. And I am sure I might change my values as I age.
Did you know even Buddhist meditators go to remote places and meditate for a few years? Political dissidents in my country during first few years of communism managed to write their experiences and meditate on life in a prison cell.
Life is not fair, though I am a bit more religious and believe there is some karma that rewards you materially or mentally for things you have done. Even if you dont get to be rich or have your wishes rewarded, you definitely can have a stable life or gain better mental state.
I know that low mental health is hard to treat and probably where you live the mental support is not perfect, and that makes you complacent. Things are hard at first to change, so start with small things. You have to convince yourself there is definitely a way of getting out of here. Try to cut your addictions if you have one of them. The internet addiction is also hard, but you have to convince yourself that spending time too much on this places will make you miserable. I struggle with this also but I made progress. With time and exercise you will succeed. If you have ADD, ask your parents or trustworthy persons to assisst you in managing your time. Even better, ask your parents to help them at work. This is a good start for somebody who doesnt know what to do. The fact that you managed to post here means you do have some potential.
Please don't end your life. You can't know if there is afterlife and I believe some people reading this
