>>7392547I like this wallpaper a lot. It's not really a depiction of a war or some dramatic grand conquest. As you said, it's a depiction of a battle, an important yet singular piece of but a larger whole. It's very personal, very visceral, and very relatable.
A few days ago, I finally mustered the courage to reach out to a friend I've been wanting to reconnect with for a while. That day he replied with one message, I sent another back, and then after 5 minutes he went offline. It may appear abrupt, but at that moment I was actually pretty relieved. I was nervous about how he would reply and if things would be the same, so the fact that he went offline sort of absolved me of responsibility. I was also certain our relationship wasn't completely derelict because we never had any kind of falling out and he was always sympathetic to me, seeing himself somewhat as someone who damaged my life. Thirdly, I had accomplished what I set out to do. I wanted to reach out for months and months and the fact of the matter is I was able to do it. I won my battle that day.
Yesterday, he messaged me back, continuing where the conversation had left off. The anxiety was much more manageable this time around because I was still sort of on the high from initiating the other day, but after a couple minutes the conversation went to a much more difficult spot. He told me he finished school, has a job, and of course the "rules" are I have to share along the same lines. Those sorts of topics are extremely difficult for me to talk about right now, and I knew he wouldn't hold my feet to the fire if I dodged them, but somehow I was able to push through. I told him I hadn't graduated yet and still needed to figure some things out, and he reassured me that it's not a race and he has other friends who needed extra time as well.
I'm proud that I was able to confront my anxiety, but I know I have to keep doing it. I suppose wars end with headlines and battles end with blood. Hope things go well 4u
