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A mobile one.
Like the other anon said, I'm trying to find meaning in life.
Last year I not only broke up with my fiance, I abandoned her. She actually has diagnosed BPD and the last month living with her was a torture and actually dangerous, she cut herself multiple times with a knife and one time she actually pointed the knife at me. Sometimes I feel I was coward, sometimes I feeI took the right choice, she wasn't alone so her friends and mom helped her... I hope.
Today I lost two of my best friends for something stupid I said two weeks ago. Feels bad but at the same time not so much, they growed distant to me in the last five years and I barely saw any of them anymore. Also, I hated many of their opinions in certain topics, but I tolerated them a lot too, I was silent for a really long time.
I dunno, I feel weird. I returned to a point in my life where I figured out theonly thing for me was work and maybe see how my sister growed up, but that's it, I don't want to have a family anymore and Is harder and harder to keep in touch with my friends
