>>7838651It's hard to be positive anymore, take any joy in even the little things when all around there's seemingly a limitless supply of simply, evil, people. Not yet one light in the dark to help me find reason for anything anymore, yet I still remain here, tired and worn down over the years.
Life just... Doesn't seem worth it anymore, I used to say I'd kill myself after the last person who truly matters to me, dies, yet I feel like I didn't used to believe it until recently. I'm hanging on to one last thread, accepting of the course I've laid out for myself, yet.. I still look for purpose to remain, whether it be the reignited space race, or yet for my nieces, who are still with my sister, who is currently homeless and addicted to drugs, dragging around those children to god knows where, it infuriates me.
I don't know for what purpose I was placed here, or if there is one at all but.. Hanging on still, yet feels right. But I don't know if I'm hanging on for that one last person, or for those girls, who I believe even despite their current situation, have the best hope of anyone in my family for getting somewhere.
What do you think? ...It's hard to tell from my perspective, I want to believe I could be holding on for them, to help guide them in life when my sister is inevitably thrown in jail, I do want the best for them, and to be the best uncle I can, but another part of me tells me to just... Die.
