>>8098749Worried I might lose my job. Unable to concentrate to learn all the bullshit I have to.
Concerned about gaining muscle at the gym, bad at exercise, embarrassed by not being fit.
I regain my strength when I'm alone and listening to music. I get delusions of grandeur and honestly I think it helps me pick up chicks, but I can't go around listening to music. This year I've improved my life a lot and changed my outlook, but after the short vacation I had, I came back to working. I want to study a trade because white collar jobs are not profitable anymore, afraid I might not be a good fit.
I miss my two brothers and my dog. I can't meet them for holidays because I don't get along with the rest of the family. I think they don't hate me, they love me, but someitmes I feel my love is one-sided. I don't try to gain them over, though, and I don't reproach.
Pray for me.
