>>7125729A good friend of mine told me almost the exact same thing like two years ago. I think she was right.
But that just helped me to reflect a little more about my own life. I realized my situation and I also realized, if it was me dream to die at 30, there was nothing generally wrong with that.
But maybe I wanted to keep my options a little broader, you know, die at 35, with the option of suicide along the way xD (yeah, I´m not a super healthy person... xD)
I still don´t make any long term plans, my calender for anything beyond three days in advance is usually empty. Also it´s generally usually empty xD
I´m still not leaving the house until like 1 pm unless it´s super necessary and I usually don´t manage to eat any reasonable breakfast besides coffee.
I still don´t ride the train anywhere close to rushhour, cause people freak me out and I have not really been working on that issue.
But I built a life that´s somewhat productive and way more important: that feels good to me around those things.
I don´t go out till noon, but I try to get up in the morning, to at least be fully awake by like 12 am.
Since I usually can´t get any real food down till afternoon, I sometimes just eat a piece of choclate before I leave home, for some bloodsugar.
As mentioned I have problems with public transportation (and no money for a car or anything) and also I have trouble beeing on time (which is bad if you wanne catch a train), so I mostly go everywhere by bike.
I think my point is, that in order to lead a better life (whatever that means to you personally) you don´t have to change who you are.
You can find your own personal ways of working around issues you have with society and the world, no need to conform to other peoples expectations :)
