>>7683640im 2 years single since this past week. sometimes i miss my ex - she's my first and last, for now - but then i remember all the shit she's said to me and done to me. i think in reality i just miss having a girl. someone to hold, and be held, or go on a hike with. i dont go much on hikes solo. there's no happiness if i'm hiking alone most of the time, i need someone there. and it aint the same with one of my buddies, you know - it just doesnt feel the same.
i've fucked up with women several times in my life. didn't take hints when it was time to take hints, that sort of thing. that or i did something i shouldnt have and scared her off. i think every day about how i scared off this girl, she's my coworker, and we're pretty close still. perfect for each other. i mean it. i knew it, she knew it. even her closest friends knew we would go well together. and i fucked everything up, scared her off with a letter i never should've written or given her. we could've had something and kept it goin, too, but i sunk that ship. its whatever.
i try to keep my head up most days. i dont like my job, but its just something to bring in money while i'm in college. as much of a slack-off as i am anyways
weird times anons weird times
