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>m, 24
Typical dude in a lot of ways, shithead in so many others. Used to be this level-headed, decent-future-ahead-of-me kindof guy. Now I've got no job, no aspirations, all of my friends are far away and doing better than me for the most part. I spend too much time overanalzying shit. I'm in a relationship with a average looking girl who I think is slowly realizing that I'm just a drain and not worth keeping around. I smoke pot every night and my opinion on whether or not that's okay changes pretty much hour to hour. Though I can manage to go without smoking when I'm in my happier place. Everything's a joke to me. I don't take anything seriously because I feel like the world's trained me to feel that way. The idea that this is all life has to offer seems weak and I often feel unfulfilled. Seems like too much is just based around luck in my life. I don't get the job, but some prick through my social web gets an amazing life changing experience. I haven't had a job in over a year and have mixed thoughts on that. On one hand, I miss being able to go out and enjoy my earned currency, on the other, working seems like a fucking joke when you think about how short life can be. I get constantly told by others that I'm attractive or smart or that I'm worth something, but then beaten over the head again and again by situations that imply otherwise. I'm bitter, depressed, seldom does anything feel worth doing. At the same time, I'm high energy and passionate about my interests, despite having zero skills that allow me to express any real creavity trapped in my skull. I'm just using this thread to vent at this point, so that should tell you a lot about me as a person. Overall, I'm somewhere between that asshole who cries "nothing's fair, everything's rigged" and the guy who's like "I will always do anything I can to help those I care about even if it means bottling up how I really feel"
FUCK THAT WAS WAY TOO PERSONAL FOR THE INTERNET, BETTER MAKE IT SEEM FUNNY
