>>7314487I'm a year deep on this path. I had said I love you before but this was the first time I had meant it. The first girl I longed to start a family with and grow old without conveniently dying before retirement. 8 months after I started dating someone and trying to convince myself she wasn't a rebound but she was and still is. I can't even fuck this girl without thinking of my ex and I literally mean that. I cannot bring myself to do the god damn act without picturing my ex because she is the only one I ever wanted to sleep with from the moment I met her.
I hear she's doing well and that's the only thing that makes anything okay
