>>5585738Don't you have people who you'll hurt? I used to want to kill myself man, I was planning it out and everything until my friend/ex-boyfriend killed himself first. It hurt so bad, and tore apart my life for months. I dropped school, stopped talking to almost all of my friends. I had nightmares about him laying in the tub with his wrists open, and about kissing him and his skin falling apart. Thinking about whether he took his contacts out or if he was wearing his glasses.
Ever since then I couldn't imagine doing that to anyone. I'd rather tough it out than make anyone feel like that for any amount of time. And yeah, life goes on, but holy fuck it's been a year and I still think about him every day.
