>>7405779I think, looking back, that's where things started to go wrong. I was in a terribly toxic relationship at the time, so i was doing my best to pay the bills, keep the lights on and food on the table. It wasn't exactly easy, and honestly, I wasn't able to manage it all, supporting three people on a single income. So I embezzelled money from my workplace for years, in secret, to supplement my income, and I wasn't taking more than I needed to get by, so I suppose I slipped through the cracks for years, but having done it, it always sticks in the back of my head as a terrible thing that I'd done that I'd hate for anyone who knew me to find out. Eventually, I was busted, and I managed to get away with a slap on the wrist and noone I knew learned of it, I suppose the company didn't know how much I'd taken, so they didn't really know what to do with me. I made up a story and found another job, but that's not really what's eating me now.
What is eating me, is that I did all this for my brother, and over the last 5 years, we just keep drifting further and further apart. He only contacts me when he needs something, I'm always the one chasing him and checking up on him. He was really sick a little while back, life threateningly so, and he spent a month in intensive care, and I contributed to his bills and was in there nearly every day so he wouldn't be so lonely, trying to keep his spirits up when he was oh so low.
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