>>7298087Hey mate, I've been through this. I've studied two different courses at uni, dropped out from both of them, at certain point I was wondering whether it's all my fault and I'm just a lazy piece of shit that doesn't deserve to live.
I know it sounds banale but seek professional help. Wishing to be dead is certainly not normal, you may be depressed, and remember that depression is a disease like cancer or diabetus. You'd go to the doctor if you suspected diabetus right?
If you don't have the money then there are options for free online counselling. The point is: I know it's hard and I want you to seek professional help before you decide to do something stupid.
