>>6539748I understand how he feels, I was addicted to Oxycontin and when I was using I no longer cared for anything. I remember laughing after railing god knows how much off my desk because I was thinking about the logistics of if I died. Stuff like who would find me if I died, who would sign my death certificate, how would my old friends that I hadn't seen or talked to in years find out. But I didn't find the idea of being dead a good or bad thing just another possibility. But thankfully I went to rehab and got clean I still drink on occasion but that side of me no longer flourishes. Know I'm just a depressed guy lurking around on 4Chan because if I go on facebook my GF will see I was up and ask why I was up so late, and I just can't bring myself to break up with her but I no longer feel love for her and I can't bring myself to do it because she's just so happy and I don't want to hurt her but I just don't feel for her anymore and I don't know why. I blame my mother and her suicidal actions that I had to stop when I was a teenager. The therapists warned me about this
