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The left is 1080p, right is 768p, that's why there's a disparity between them.
I'm not joking, either. I didn't change the wallpaper before the screenshot. This is literally all I have for the wallpaper/shortcuts.
Have felt empty and meaningless for the last few years.
Not out of fear, but I don't want to go get a psych evaluation to say that it's depression or some other gay shit because I just don't want to know the results.
I've never really had the drive to finish things through, even for shit I used to care about (~6 years ago when I was doing some local community college IT course, I flunked some of the core units because I felt underwhelmed, knowing most of the shit, so I got lazy because I'm a fucking stupid cunt)
For the last few years, I've been losing my interest in shit that I used to like.
Recently bought a relatively cheap camera to try and see if I do like photography, because a few times when on bike rides, I've thought "huh that looks cool", and snapped a shot on my phone, but with limited control on my phone camera, I wanted to be less shit with it.
After I moved out, family stopped talking to me and trying to keep contact with me, regardless of my attempts.
I have maybe 2 people online that I'd consider friends, since we talk fairly regularly, and have known eachother for about 8 years now; both have slowed down talking to me, one getting a girlfriend and prioritising her more than anybody else, and the other going into hospital for constant health issues.
I'm too much of a fucking pussy to go to events, clubs, social shit to go meet people to hang with that might have any similar interests.
I have a "good enough" computer (Ryzen 2700, RX 580 8GB, 32GB RAM), but I don't fucking do anything meaningful with it. I don't do video editing, rendering, image editing/manipulation, and I've been playing less and less games.
But hey, look on the bright side, I'm not physically dead yet, have a roof over my head, and an internet connection.
