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I can't really complain, especially compared to alot of the other people here. But I'm confused with my life alot of the time. Since I've gone to university (1,5 years ago) so much changed for the better. I've used to be depressed all the time, and had nearly no social contacts outside of school, for the sole reason of being too unmotivated to see people. Now I moved in with 3 old friends of mine very recently, which helped alot, since they get me to do more stuff. Also started running frequently, had my first short (and shitty) relationship (which is fine in hindsight, we both weren't ready for it, she had her own problems too). But on the other side there is always the fear, of falling back into old habits, the semesterbreaks are the scariest shit for me, since nothing forces me to have a daily routine. I hate myself for not having the discipline to organize my life, when I don't have to. Also I've met alot of really nice people at the university, but oftentimes I lack the confidence to be myself around them, although I know, it wouldn't be a problem for them. And then again, I don't really know who that "real me" would be, or how he would act. So much changed, that I honestly don't know. Sometimes I wish, there was just some kind of "old wise dude" in my life, who could just tell me, whats best for me and could guide me. I try to just live in the moment, and when I manage to do so (which rarely happens) it's awesome, but often I just tend to overthink. Since I got over my Ex, theres a new girl I really like, but I always catch myself, trying to appeal to her in ways, which just aren't really me. In conclusion I really need to sort my shit out, and just do whatever makes me happy, but often it's hard, and I end up just playing videogames and being useless all day. I just keep trying my best.
Also this thread is awesome, good luck everyone!
