>>8084311My mom is 5-10 years from being here, and I know I'll have to face all of this but that hardly helps me prepare. I'm still more capable than you though, RIP.
>>8084346I feel this about the GF. Amazing human being to have in my life but after years of spending time and working, I hardly feel like I have time for myself. It's mostly not true, I know I spend too much time on my phone, but responsibilities feel restricting nonetheless.
My sob is I spent post-high school (almost exclusively) working on writing a science fiction novel. I did five drafts over 4 years and am 18 months into adapting it into a radio drama podcast with the hopes that maybe one day it gets the audience to convince a network to buy me out so I can get a real paycheck. In the meantime, I've worked part-time jobs and stuff with zero experience required which has landed me full-time at a chemical factory that I know is leading me to an early grave, but it's what I need to live and work on my book. I'm pretty sure the podcast (despite my best efforts to build a social media presence before release) will get lost in the algorithm of millions of other better creators, and I'll be thirty with a shitty job, a cringy sci-fi novel, and no house. Anon with the dead baby has it worse though, so I guess yall helped with perspective :-)
