>>6579232You're gonna tie yourself in knots for a while anon, that's just sorta how it goes. Take your lumps, listen to sad music...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xoitegszoRchttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7T5hYlUsQ0sand some day you'll be ok. If she said she wants to be close but not a romantic partner, it frankly doesn't sound like it was meant to be. It's okay man, life isn't some grand tragedy, it isn't a rom-com, she's not the only woman you'll love, and when you look back on it all you'll be glad to have grown.