>>7561018Worked my ass off to build a project for a joint PhD in Germany. I had good chances, but now, with the pandemic, the funding might not be available anymore.
I've tried alternatives and failed on all of them, this was my last chance. I'm deeply disappointed at myself.
Without this it's likely I'll be stuck where I'm now and will have increasingly worse positions. The only thing I thought I was good at... incompetent at that too.
